Endo appt.

In less than 4 days, I have a endo appt. For those that dont know what endo is, it just means diabetes doctor. 
I'm nerves about my appt, everyone say it will be fine and that my doctor is there is help me! I know his but I still worry about my appt! I dont know why but I do. 
3 mouths ago my A1C was 6.8. I'm hoping to be it down to 6.6, but I dont want it too low. I would even be happy if it was 6.5. 
In the next 4 days, I will need to get my diabetes binder up-to-date. Hopefully in the next 4 days my blood sugar's will be nice to me! 

Till next time 
~Jaimie~

What are you Thankful for?

Last night at Church we had our Thanksgiving service, were we want though out the Church and who ever wanted to want up and said what they were Thankful for.

So what are y'all Thankful for? I can tell ya what I'm Thankful for.

I'm thankful my friends and family. My Grandma and Grandpa Chaffin are a big part of my life. I think since I only grow up with Grandpa Chaffin as my only grandpa I know, I became close to him and my Grandma!

I'm Thankful for insulin, I have said that more than once but without insulin I would not be alive. Nor would alot of people. For 6 years I was on insulin shots, as much as I hated shots, I'm thankful that I had them for 6 years.  When I was 10, I got my insulin pump. Now my pump, I'm more thankful for! It makes my life so much better bring able to pull my pump out and give insulin when I need too. I can count more than once when I would be in Church while we are praying and I would reamber that I forgot to bolus for what I eat or something, after reamber that I forgot to bolus, I would pull my pump out and bolus for it than.

I'm Thankful for my parents! Growing up I can reamber almost every Sunday my parents along with my brothers and I would go off to Church. I'm Thankful that they take my to church! I dont think I would be the young woman I am today without growing up in a Church. I have met so many people at church and I love everyone of them too!

I almost forgot about my brothers! Josh and Aaron have been awesome brothers to me! Josh bring the helpful brother, but yet the brother that when he told you to do something you better you it! And Aaron bring the overprotective brother at time. With both of them out of the house I miss them both! I will forever be their baby sister and their only sister! But I love them even when they want to fight be me!

I'm Thankful for The DOC (Diabetes Online Community) They are awesome people! I have met alot of people my age or older and even younger that are diabetic's! When I came into the DOC, I met people that I never know were diabetic's.

And than there is the people I like to call my 2nd family! Those people are awesome! When I was younger I never though of any of the people I know as my 2nd family but now I love all of them! They will sit and listen to what I have to say or I can talk to them on facebook. I love the advice they give when I ask for it!

So now that y'all know what I'm Thankful for. What are you Thankful for?

What is normal?

I though about something that was said at YC a couple weeks ago, on the last day the speaker was talking about people asking him if he ever wanted to be normal. Normal? he said What even is normal? If normal if like you, than I dont want to be normal.

I got to thinking about what my normal is. I have always wanted to be normal, but what really is normal. I have to say if normal is like Obama, than I dont want to be normal. Maybe my normal is bring a diabetic since thats all I know. I dont know what it's like to eat something without being aware of the carbs in what I'm eating, or with out thinking do I need to get checked. I dont like this normal, the normal that I want is were I dont have to think about carbs or checking my sugar or reamber to take insulin. And when I leave the house I dont want to always have to be checking to make sure I have my checker or juice or the kit for in case I pass out from bring too low.

I cant help but wonder if for some reason, God made me like this for a reason. Maybe God made me a diabetic cause he know I could handle it. There is a pic I seen on facebook that say "Stronger than Diabetes" I seen that, and though yes I am. I asked a friend to make me a pic that said "Stronger than my fear of needles" Both are very true!!

I maybe a diabetic but I stronger than diabetes and i'm stronger than my fear of needles.

I asked someone once why they stuck around after they found out I was a diabetic, their answer was "Cause its not who you are, its a part of you." Which is true, diabetes does not define me it makes me a stronger person than I was before I became a diabetic.

I dont know that I would be the person I am today if I had not become a diabetic. As much as I wish I was "normal" I also know that maybe I am meant to do something with my diabetes or diabetic's. Over the past 3 years I have been some really awesome diabetic teens and adults, but I have also meet some really cool and awesome even great non-diabetic's. When I put both sides of friends together, I have some pretty awesome friends. That I hope will stick around always.

So i'm asking you what do you think normal is?

Craziness

In the past couple mouths alot has gone on.

Between diabetes, school its been different.

I've been a diabetic since I was 3 1/2, Want on the pump when I was 10.

For the past 3 years I have been home schooled, I love it cause i'm able to take care of my diabetes better. But this year has been different, In past years I have done good and take care of my diabetes. But this year has not been like past years. I've been doing everything with my pump. I bolus when i need too, but I don't test like I should. 

School has been crazy this year too. I have 12 class left so I'm trying to get all my class done this year. But with doing that it's been stressful. But I want to be done this year with school so I will get it done!

You put school and diabetes together that = craziness and stressful

Well till next time ~Jaimie~

Diabetes burn out???

The past 3 mouths has been different for me.

I have been running in the 200's 300's sometimes 400's. Not a good thing for a diabetic, I know, but it happens. It's not fun when it happens. Cause than my A1C goes higher and I'm not happy about that.

This past week, I looked at my 7 day Avg and 14 day Avg. It was in the 200's. So this past week, I desiced something. I am going to work harder between now and Oct,12 (My endo appt) at keeping my BG under 200.

It will be hard, but I can do it. Just have to change the way I do thing's now.

I will not go into Diabetes burn out!!

~Jaimie Rose~

Long story

I want camping last week. I left on Wednesday with my church. We had changed my pump just before I left that afternoon. Everything was going fine that day and the next morning. Thursday morning we set off to hike not far from the camp site. Everything was going great, till we got to the end of the trail. We end at Lake Superior, we want down to the lake. I was just going to get my feet wet than I decided I was going to go for a swim. This was all before we eat. Less say that while I was trying to come in the 1st time. The waves we taking me out more. I can swim but I was getting worry at that point. Lucky I did get back to shore after I had my youth pastor out with me. While trying to get back to shore. I like ripped some of my site out lucky it did not come out than. We eat and than i want swimming again. And than we got ready to leave after that. I had my pump on than and the site was still on. Its take about 2 hours to get back to the camp site.

Once back there I was still wet so I want to change into some different clothes. After i was change i was trying to get my site to stick back to my leg. Did not work like i want it too. It come out. And of course i did not have the poker thing to redo my site. But i did have stuff to change my pump. By this time the guys had just left to go get gas and ice. I had my friend ask her mom if she would put the needle in me. Since I don't care for needles. It take up about 30 mins to talking about how to do this. My friend's mom has never done this before now. She does have a nephew that is a diabetic. So she know what it was. We did get it done after 30 mins of talking about doing it. But we wanted to get it over with before the guys got back. After it was done my friend and her mom could not believe that i did not feel it. I did but it was just like it was when i check my self.

After the guys got back we got to tell them all about it.

The next day while hiking almost back we were just hanging around and talking. My friend and I were taking pic. When she said Blog post. She was so right. It only take me about 4 days to write the post.

Till next time
~Jaimie Rose~      

I never would have though...

I would never have though I would be a diabetic. At the age of 3 1/2 life was going good for me. But than diabetes desiced to rain on my party of life as a 3 year old.

On January 28 1999, I was diagnosis with type one diabetes that changed not only my life as a 3 1/2 year old but my parents and my brothers life. My parents learned how to count carbs and everything. I got shots every day for 5 years. Now I get a needle in me every 3 days for the past 4 years.

You would think bring a diabetic I would not be afraid of needles but I am. For what reason I don't know. The only needles I don't care for are when i get my blood work done and when we change my pump every 3 days. You would never think that a diabetic would be afraid of needles but this diabetic is.

When I think of when its time to change my pump again. All I can see is this needle that is long and that i don't care for one bit. Sometimes I think of my self as a pin cushion cause I have to deal with needles all the time. Not just every 3 days but every day. I deal with needles when I check my self and if i'm high, I give a shot and have to deal with yet one more needle.

As a 3 1/2 year old i would have never though that i would have needles for the rest of my life or till they find a cure. 13 years later i wish they would have a cure now. Maybe in a few more years they will have a cure.  

Till next time
~Jaimie Rose~